Hi Guys!
Well for this post, I didn’t know what to talk about, so I thought I would let
you into my life a little bit. This post is about how to handle grief in
college. In January of this year, my father died from cancer. This threw off my
entire year, well and my life. I personally was a mess, on the three-hour car
ride home I was playing the should of could of game, I felt dead. I didn’t want
to talk to people, I could not remember one good thing I did for my father of
what he did for me. All I could think of was what I didn’t do and what I did do
that was awful. Don’t play that game, it’s the worst thing you could do to
yourself.
I personally don’t share my emotions very well, and I hate people
seeing me cry it’s the worst feeling in the world. We didn’t have a funeral for
him, my father was cremated and his memorial is May 5th, 2018. It’s different for
every family on how they deal with a death of a loved one. I went back to
school after four or five days and tried to act like nothing happened. Also,
not a good thing, but I did it anyway. I have random moments when I just have some
much built up that it all gets let out, which is a good thing let it happen it
will make you feel a lot better. I still struggle, when I go home and I’m by
myself I can’t really function very well because I think of my dad, but it does
get easier. I know it may not seem like it at the time, but it will get better,
definitely not all the way better, but you will get there and that in itself is
an accomplishment. Talk to your friends, talk to somebody even if it maybe
yourself, but don’t degrade yourself to thinking you are nothing and that you
can’t be the person you used to be. That will only make you feel worse, always
have faith and don’t bottle thinks up. If you ever need anybody to talk to, I’m
free to talk just shoot me a comment and I’ll get back to you!
Until the ‘morrow we will speak again
Until the ‘morrow we will speak again
~Megan